I have not been blogging very well of late......although defining 'well' would be a difficult task.
I read blogs and don't comment on them.
I post only now and again.
It is the way of things just now with me regretably.
But......but...it does not mean that each and every day I don't happen
upon something, a situation or a notion or a comment or somesuch, that will
put me in mind of one of you.
Make me smile.
It is very easy to be really fond of blog friends (especially ones that I have
met in the real world now) as in most ways there is a shared 'suits both sides' relationship.
I present myself with care and judgement.... a blog buddy will only have access
to some of the real me ..... although I suspect we all read between the lines with
blogs and make up our own minds about the blogger...what we think they are like
in real life and how we think we would interact with them.
I like all my readers.
You are all good people.
I would like to blog at least until next Autumn when I will hit the 5yr mark.
Not a very ambitious goal in life but one that I have set myself never the less.
Away from the ether and in real life I am not always the nicest person in the world to my family, and the older I get I find that I am becoming a little more blunt about what I say.
This is unplanned and has surprised me although I do not regret what is happening,
as I feel that I have been holding my tongue for a long time.......so as not to rock any boats or
It seems that I am giving myself licence to be me.
Yet this releasing of my inner thoughts and feelings is uncomfortably akin to being on a
fairground ride I have no control over....not knowing the twists and turns and speed and
how I will feel once it stops.....unsettling.
Also surprising for those around me...those I love......Mea Culpa.
I will harness all my thoughts and feelings and dare I say powers
and arrange them into an order that will enable me to function without setting me
adrift from those I love.
It is the day before Christmas Eve.
It is not yet 9am and I feel hugely emotional.
There is much to be done.
None of you need to be reading about the state of my mental health at the moment.....
So if you are then you must know I truly wish you a very Happy Christmas x