Today has been a long day.
For work purposes, on a training day, if you spend hours and hours in a room with people who have not been around as long as yourself it is wearying.....so very very wearying.
Yes I know I am old, yes I know I have been doing the job for far too long,
yes I know that I am yearning to retire.
I am tired.
I have heard it all before..the words sometimes change and may be in a different order
but 'stating the bleeding obvious' never alters.
I am good at my job.
That statement by the way is not me being big-headed....it is a recognised fact....and not just by me!
(Although I do blush to type it.....but this is my blog so I am allowing myself a small pat on the back).
Watching people have light bulb moments and feel enthusiastic used to be fun and entertaining...that person feeling motivated was me 30 years ago. It is not me now. So I keep quiet. I am worn down.
Worn down but never negligent, un-professional, uncaring, impolite or slapdash, I am able to hold my head high and acknowledge what I have learned over those years. Realistic is the term I prefer.
Experience often does count and I know that I can trust my judgement and am very, very rarely off kilter with regard to people ........I know the difference between shit and shinola (film reference anyone?) .
So on days like today I keep quiet but oh how I have struggled ... and managed to not sigh in frustration everytime someone has said 'writ' instead of wrote and 'fink' instead of think..... AND YES I KNOW THAT IN THE LONG RUN IT MATTERS NOT, THAT ENGLISH IS A LIVING LANGUAGE ETC., BUT IT DRIVES ME UP THE WALL PEOPLE!!
It grates on my very last nerve.
I KNOW I am judgemental, unforgiving, old and not open minded..... I know.....but I am also bloody fed up.......
and now I can hear you all saying 'miserable old cow needs to get a life and not be so up herself'...........
but typing that was so cathartic.