We are back from a couple of days at the coast (courtesy of my sis/brother in law and niece) and had a lovely time......good food, drink, excellent company and just generally enjoying being away from stresses and strains of normal life back here.
We woke up and saw signs of sunshine each morning..
and checked the sky to see lots of blue...
I think that if you need a break, it does not have to be a long break......holidays of two weeks are great but a couple of nights can be all you need.
We visited long enough to catch up, to unwind, and to have a good time.
We came home and felt refreshed.
Today was back to GP visits/Pharmacist consultations/problems with medications for Ma and trying to tell Pa that is was ok that he had bought a mango instead of an avocado....everybody makes mistakes and he is getting to be beyond stressed just lately and displaying signs of wear and tear.
I can understand why people of a certain age used to employ companions or nurses or housekeepers....my parents are beginning to need to have someone to help out in various ways and as much as I love them I cannot see a future where that role falls naturally to me in a full time way and I will be able (or truthfully want ) to do it.............I work and I live an hour away from them.......sigh......I suppose worrying about the future is pointless just now anyway so in fact what will be will be...........
I only know that on the radio today, I heard that if you had a stressful job, where you had no control over any part of it, (and I do hate my job too so that doesn't help ) that you had a high chance of having a heart attack........which is not what I need to hear when I feel the responsibility of caring for aged parents.....
Pause...........................have just read back what I have typed and feel very disloyal and ever so slightly 'poor little me'.......and yet.......and yet......my parents are in their mid eighties, I am a 58 yr old 'sandwich generation' working woman, who I guess is just whinging a little bit, and in this instance, I am going to allow myself to do it.
And book lots of little mini breaks.