I've lost my shopping vibe.
Walked past the clothes in the shops today.
Ignored the make-up.
Glanced at the scent.
Cast a quick eye at handbags.
Pondered over some prints.
Dismissed slippers, purses, chocolates, CD's, DVD's and scented candles.
Stroked some cashmere throws and socks.
Looked longingly at some jewellery.
Considered some object knicky knacky type stuff. Reconsidered.
Breathed a big sigh over some books.
Wondered about underwear.
Realised that what I wanted I couldn't afford and what I could afford I didn't want.
Although even this didn't really bother me.
My 'this is the right thing to buy' instinct had deserted me and that made me sad.
I no longer know what presents to buy for loved ones.
I came home and did the washing instead.
It occurred to me that I was sad that I had no magic wand and that I was looking at 'stuff' when what I really would love to give is solutions or answers or wonderful surprises. No new slippers or scarves were going to be up to the job.
I cannot provide, wrapped up in a box with a big bow, any solution to a health problem, or a career, or
any dream come true......I am not a Fairy Godmother.
I am a mother, wife, sister, daughter, aunt, cousin, friend.
Christmas is coming and there WILL be presents under the tree....just not sure what yet.