Ever joined something you wish you maybe hadn't joined? I am slightly wobbly about my recent new activity. Only second week in but already there is anxiety, puzzlement, weird noise. I don't know where I am supposed to stand. Sometimes I just feign the 'ooooohhhs and aaaahhhhss'....wonder if it fools them?
They speak a strange language, that I struggle to understand. My friend from work, who with a smile on her face said it would be fun and ' there is no audition, you don't have to read music and of course you can sing' might not have been telling the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I have joined a choir. Have wanted to for years, but don't read music, don't really know if I am soprano, alto, tenor or bass?!? and am terrified that the conductor is going to spread her hands then lift one to her ear and point my way saying 'you ... making that terrible noise at the back...please leave...'.
We had sheets of music paper this week...you know that stuff that to me just sits on pianos and has black and white lines and squiggly bits on it....and she kept saying things like ' so at that D or E or C return to bar 17 for an accent on that long note....'. I thought she had slipped into Serbo Croat..........
Can't give up just yet though... listening to voices in unison has always made me goose bumpy....and I would love love love to perhaps get through this initial bit and maybe be a part of that.....unless I am discovered and booted out mind you.