Tuesday, December 31, 2013

The last post.........of 2013......

I am extremely lucky to be able to report that 2013 has been an awfully good year for me.
No immediate family members died.
No one is in prison or hospital.
We all still have jobs.
There is a roof over our heads.
Water to drink and food to eat.
That is the important stuff....the way I remember to count my blessing each night.
When I get into bed and think 'best place in all the world'.
The year has thrown up challenges...but has also graced me with love, laughter and a bigger dress size...curse you mother nature...when will you let me find calorie free cake?
OK so now I am remembering each month....don't feel obliged to read any further..just skip to the end if you fancy..I won't be offended.
In January this year I saw Les Mis at the cinema.....my Christmas gift from my daughter is that in February next year she will take me to see it on the London stage....and I am looking forward to that immensely...time spent with my loved ones is truly special.
February was a truly splendid trip to Tallin with my mister, sister and brother in law. Such a good time...such memories.
March saw my son reach the grand old age of 28...he continues to be a source of great pride to me and the mister....hard working and kind.
April and May were punctuated by visits with family and friends and my daughters 22nd birthday...she is now a fully paid up member of the beautiful girl club.
In June my Ma was 21 again cough....
July held softly in its hands a very special graduation and the departure of my girl to London.......and at the end of the month a holiday in the sun with my sis and her family....memories were made.
August presented us with more birthdays and September ambled into an October that began with sadness...a funeral of an Aunt and a heart attack for my big sis....who luckily now seems to be quite stable on her medication...fingers crossed.
Late October and then November really made us dust off our weekend bags as we visited Warsaw, Cumbria and Gdansk with a weekend in early December in Copenhagen too....thank you cheap airlines.
Along the way there have been trips to the coast and visits to galleries and exhibitions and seeing friends and going to the cinema...attempts to pepper the daily grind of work with little treats each month...it is a way that works for me...little rewards for continuing to get up and go to somewhere I hate but somewhere that funds our life.
Still reading?...then these pics will be a change for you....photos that I have taken through the year that I didn't post or that aren't that good........but reflect my year.

Health and happiness and contentment is what I wish for each and every one of you this New Year....may you know peace and love X

Monday, December 23, 2013

The slacker speaks......

I have not been blogging very well of late......although defining 'well' would be a difficult task.
I read blogs and don't comment on them.
I post only now and again.
It is the way of things just now with me regretably.
But......but...it does not mean that each and every day I don't happen
upon something, a situation or a notion or a comment or somesuch, that will
put me in mind of one of you.
Make me smile.
It is very easy to be really fond of blog friends (especially ones that I have
met in the real world now) as in most ways there is a shared 'suits both sides' relationship.
I present myself with care and judgement.... a blog buddy will only have access
to some of the real me ..... although I suspect we all read between the lines with
blogs and make up our own minds about the blogger...what we think they are like
in real life and how we think we would interact with them.
I like all my readers.
You are all good people.
I would like to blog at least until next Autumn when I will hit the 5yr mark.
Not a very ambitious goal in life but one that I have set myself never the less.

Away from the ether and in real life I am not always the nicest person in the world to my family, and the older I get I find that I am becoming a little more blunt about what I say.
This is unplanned and has surprised me although I do not regret what is happening,
as I feel that I have been holding my tongue for a long time.......so as not to rock any boats or
cause unhappiness.
It seems that I am giving myself licence to be me.
Scary times.
Yet this releasing of my inner thoughts and feelings is uncomfortably akin to being on a
fairground ride I have no control over....not knowing the twists and turns and speed and
how I will feel once it stops.....unsettling.
Also surprising for those around me...those I love......Mea Culpa.
I will harness all my thoughts and feelings and dare I say powers
and arrange them into an order that will enable me to function without setting me
adrift from those I love.

It is the day before Christmas Eve.
It is not yet 9am and I feel hugely emotional.
There is much to be done.
None of you need to be reading about the state of my mental health at the moment.....

So if you are then you must know I truly wish you a very Happy Christmas x

Friday, December 6, 2013

That list in my head.......

Buy presents.
Make presents.
Plan comings and goings.
Organise travel.
Pick up specs from opticians.
Write cards.
Clean house.
Look for quilt that Ma wants (she swears I have it and I KNOW I don't..)
Iron stuff that is sitting on the chair....that pile that is getting bigger and bigger........
Think about food shopping.
Go to work - eeeughhhh hate this one.
Sweep leaves from the drive....have to wade through them to get to the porch door.
Book dental appointment.

Continue to sit here for another ten minutes before I get ready for work as the cat has nudged the laptop slightly and had positioned himself  between me and it and as I stroke his chin he is obviously a very happy chap...purring away with his eyes closed and making me feel calm and relaxed.
Thank you sweet baby Cheesus.....all will be well.


Just for now.