Sunday, February 27, 2011

mothers ruin......

Had a lovely day yesterday.
Friends and laughter.
Gin.
Too much gin........

Am mightily hungover this morning.
No sympathy please......self induced and all that.
Will I feel better soon?
please........

Sunday, February 20, 2011

quite extraordinary.....

Missed my girl today.
Driving along country roads - the outward journey was Tom Waits ... 'how do the angels get to sleep when the devil leaves the porch light on......'
and the return journey was Joni .. Blue....

Strangely, singing out loud my voice was exactly like Joni....and I was hitting those high notes like you would not believe..................it was, as I say, quite extraordinary.......

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Choices........


Later on today I shall
dust these
and these
go to this
pick one of these

make a cup of this

and spend an hour or two here





Which book would you recommend?

Friday, February 18, 2011

oops...

In a teeeeeeeedious meeting at work yesterday I heard myself say with some vehemence 'well they can just fuck off'......there was a silence.......I didn't realise I had said it out loud.
Ah well....as usual folks I am happy to report that today is FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

of course it helps if you post the picture......

ta dah.....

Up close and personal.....

My uncle, on the left, with parrot..........this is for Trish over at http://mumsgoneto.blogspot.com/......

What were they thinking back then???

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Only in the privacy of your own home.......

Thank goodness that I cannot be seen at the moment.
It is cold here. The heating is on. The fire is on.
I am not warm.
I am dressed like a really old lady......I am wearing an old lady tartan wrap/poncho thing that I keep thrown over the chair for times just like this....if any visitor were to arrive, it would be taken off and thrown quickly back over the chair.
Not that we have unexpected visitors...which is how we like it really.
A tartan poncho........only a matter of time until it's a slanket...............................................

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Noisy buggers.....

At the cinema last night, and thought that 'Never let me go' was just wonderful. I did shed a little tear I must admit, and have been giving it thought today, which I like....a film that stays with you for a little while.
There was a fly in the ointment though....in a cinema with only 20 people in it 4 of them were young, stupid and noisy, and lucky that I stopped my husband from 'having a word' with them........

Monday, February 14, 2011

setting myself a deadline.....

No, not for anything interesting or fabulous or life changing....no losing weight or having a book published or learning mandarin (Good Lord I wish I had the intelligence and determination to do something like that..) or finally becoming comfortable with I.T. .......
just setting myself a goal for today as I have a lot to do and I thought that it would be lovely to sit down this evening and feel good about getting it all done........
apologies to anyone who thinks that words of wisdom, ideas on how to achieve peace in world hotspots or discussions on medicine and education rights for our children will be aired and viewed and posted here....sorry......got to get my arse off this chair...............
ps. me and dithering and generally dragging my feet? well acquainted............

Saturday, February 12, 2011

And another thing.....

Listening to Tom Waits.......Christmas card from a hooker in Minneapolis from Blue Valentine...... just wonderful......


.My cat not being lost (late in this morning....) and being here to snuggle with....
Looking forward to seeing Never let me go later in the week.....

Peace and love people...peace and love x

Not smug....just grateful....

1. Not getting up for work.....this was good.
2. Taking time over a breakfast of soft, hot croissant and ginger jam with tea....also good.
3. Husband filling my car with petrol and going to Tesco to get some shopping....that's him not me..what a hero.
4. Driving through the beautiful countryside on my way to visit ma and pa...fabulous.
5. Ma and Pa in good form.....managing to do a little gardening, and ma beginning to repeat things but
   looking well. Sorting out dads tv remote and getting him dtv'd up...result.
6. My pa giving me a necklace that he had bought for me in a charity shop..very pretty.
7. Stopping to charity shop on the way home and buying a lovely M+S linen shirt/tunic and 4 King penguin books.
8. Dropping by my sons on the way home.....seeing my lad always makes me happy.
9. Dinner cooked by husband when I arrive home.....and he bought me a cheesecake!
10. Phone call from sister to say that niece has a job.
11. Phone call from friend to arrange lunch and walk in park tomorrow.

As I say......so far so good.......how amazingly lucky and blessed am I?

How has your day been?

Friday, February 11, 2011

too close to the screen.......

I am certainly being visually delighted this week, what with watching lots of telly and going to the pictures and even streaming stuff from t'internet.......and have just been to see True Grit, a Coen brothers film that doesn't fail to deliver. As there were 6 of us, one member of our group decided to stride down the cinema like a man on a mission to get us seats together.......but he seemed to pass lots and lots of rows that we would happily have snuggled ourselves into...we were so close to the front I had a crick in my neck and a bad back !
Why, en masse, do we let one person take charge? Perhaps our friend needs glasses.........if it were left to me I would pick the back row centre every time. I hate having people behind me and the distance from back row to screen seems about right to me.....although when I'm stinking rich with lottery money I shall have my own little cinema....and pool.....and wood....and handmade clothes....and oh I must stop.....such nonsense....but ps Karma Queen? if you're listening? I would like to win........and will be a good kind lottery winner ... honest.........

Thursday, February 10, 2011

wasting time.......

I have just spent an hour on Taaz.

No, I'd never heard of it either.....but my niece put me on to it.

Considering that I have spent my whole life never being happy with my hair, and wishing that I had a fuller mouth, and wearing very little makeup, the chance to try every colour/cut of hair and mess about with the shape of my lips, at no cost or danger of mistake, was just so entertaining.
Yet despite every change and consideration of every change, it appears that the face I was most comfortable with was not too far distant from my own....I gave myself hair a la Candy Spelling, Armani #11 lipstick, and slight Nars blush..........

It made me think of that saying ..... something along the lines of .....if a roomful of people, each with a bag of troubles, made a big pile of the bag of troubles in the centre of the room.........they would all hope to pick up their own bag when it came time to collect them....or something like that......



And on another entirely unrelated note.......Ken Branagh as Wallander is so effing sexy.....why is that??

Monday, February 7, 2011

The 'this is me' meme from stickyfingers blog....

I have used this photo before.... a portrait of me......I see it every morning when I open my wardrobe door......this is how my daughter saw and portrayed me when both of us were younger........I leave it there just to remind me not to scream and shout and get my knickers in a twist. Now it makes us smile.

'tis.......

From the sound of outside, there is quite a wind blowing. Here, it is warm and my get up and go has got up and gone...but I need to shift myself as I am out on a Training day today.....a chance to sit, think, doodle, be away from work, meet other hamsters from the wheel like me, and even have official teabreaks....I don't get those at work...so I will be up and at'em in a few minutes.....or ten....or twenty....................................

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Pugilism.......

I find it very difficult to be as enamoured of watching boxing as my husband is. I don't like to see men hit each other in order to hurt each other. He says I don't get it. He may be right. He says it is a sport. I find this confusing....challenging yourself to see how fast you can run or how high you can jump or how quickly you can row does make a sort of sense to me (NOT THAT I WOULD EVER BE CALLED UPON OR INCLINED TO TAKE PART IN SUCH ERRANT MADNESS) but when I have watched boxing I find it is usually from behind interlaced fingers or a cushion or newspaper and I cringe as you hear each thud and see some mothers son taking or giving a beating.

That being said - we have just been to the pictures to see The Fighter.

Great film, very enjoyable, thoroughly enjoyed it.
Still don't get it though...........

Saturday, February 5, 2011

mind altering....

Off to see ma and pa today. Ma has been on 'pills to help with your anxiety' for a couple of weeks now and the change is wonderful....she smiles, laughs, and seems to be getting out and about a bit more with Pa..they went swimming in the week and had breakfast out! this is huge in their world......
Why do I feel as if I am in cahoots with her GP and we are duping her in some way? if she seems happy is that all there is to it then? keep taking the tablets??

Friday, February 4, 2011

I've been watching the telly again.......

Last night.......Gilbert and George.
Wankers? Wonderful?  Wonderful wankers?

I have always liked them.
I am not sure why, because if I think about it they could be very irritating....posh wanky arty types that are so up themselves it beggars belief.

And yet.....

I love to listen to George, his soft posh voice pleases me.
The fact that they 'are' living sculptures tickles me.

I don't like the fact that they both quietly say/grunt a low 'no' in a questioning way very quickly at the end of every sentence.
I do like their uniqueness.

There is symmetry in their work, which also pleases me.

Given that I am a creature of mood, perhaps on another day I will not like them so much.....

but today I do.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Internships........

Watching 'who gets the best jobs?'...........very depressing.

I can't give my children promises of a golden future......promises of work and healthcare and opportunity, with a safe environment and a reward assured if you work hard and play life with a straight bat.

Maybe I'm not supposed to be able to........but I feel guilty about it.

I am not 'connected' or wealthy and not able to 'arrange' an internship for my daughter.

She is a bright girl....with a sunny disposition. Her future is out there for her, and she will travel her own road.

Mother knows best they say.

Blowing the dust off the blog......

And in other news.......... I have decided to retire at Christmas. This will be a reduction in money coming in but hopefully a better qua...