Tuesday, August 31, 2010

banged to rights guv'nor..

Right enough CBD ..holding my hands up and no excuse.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Any questions?

Why do people not indicate when they are driving? ( and no, this is not going to be a 'poor me I'm so fed up' rant..in fact I'm feeling quite chipper at the moment).....

 I  am pondering a few things...like why is that little sticky thing at the end of a sliced loaf so hard to get undone that you end up using a knife? and why does something on a hanger in a shop fall off its hanger if I so much as look at it?  and why does my daughter not see the connection between clothes hangers and clothes? and why do chips taste better in the paper than on a plate? mmmmmmm.....scratches chin thoughtfully........

Sunday, August 29, 2010

In praise of......

Ginger beer.
A husband who irons his own stuff.
Amazing weather - sometimes sunny sometimes stormy - but amazing to view.
Hoovering and singing at the same time....it's all just noise anyway.
Dishwashers.
Spending an hour or two browsing through old family photos.
Having a cat come and sit on your lap and fall asleep so that you feel yourself in tune with the slow breathing and relaxing and just chilling.
Reading blogs and thinking how lucky you are to have found great people to 'interact through the ether' with.
Changing the beds and looking forward to getting into one later.
Life.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Pull yourself together ...

Strange forces are at work....the weather is all cold/warm still/blowy wet/dry and there is a mood I cannot shake myself out of. Don't know if I want food, sex, drink, a fight, a good cry or some retail therapy....possibly all of the above. Not able to settle to anything and am therefore doing nothing  (and rather well). Cross with myself that I'm not someone else. Need a kick up the arse really and a stern talking to.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Guardian.

I had wanted to see her/him for some time. Got all excited when there she/he was......so very very beautiful.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Last day....

Unike the boomtown rats I do like Mondays..that is my day off. Saturday turned out to be the day I had family commitments and so rather unusually tomorrow is a freebie. It is the last day of my holiday and as yet I do not have a plan...something that has to be done...somewhere I have to be...people I need to think about..nothing...nada....and as wonderful as that should be, it feels strange. I already feel guilty and tomorrow isn't even here yet.....I may not stay in my jamas all day, eating and drinking and reading. I could if I wanted to .... but grown ups don't do that do they? do they??

Saturday, August 21, 2010

yet again...a request for help....don't be cross..please...

This is a laptop that is new to me.....the free trial anti virus/disease/trojan/ firewall software thingy  has run out...I believe I need something like that on this machine....do I have to go to PC world and buy something today? if so what gets most peoples vote? thanks for reading....you are a good person....

Friday, August 20, 2010

Catching up.....

Well after the girls eventually became skyward we heard that Kiss had gone bust....the company their holiday was booked with....so we had an ever so slight panic at needs dusting towers...but after checking that they were ATOL/insured/credit card had been used and CAA guaranteed (?) return flights/ holiday for them we feel a bit better....but will still be glad to see them home. At least the weather there is good...it's persisting it down here.......

Have just had a lovely visit from my sister.....she lives on the south coast and came up for a few days so that we could go somewhere for a girls type shopping day with an overnight stay ..either bnb or hotel.....and we decided on Cheltenham..the hotel was too far out of town for us..but we had risked one of those 'mystery hotel deals' and it came up with the Thistle..which had a pool...only good thing really..anyhoo....Cheltenham was lovely, the sun shone and it only rained when we were inside eating and we mooched about and shopped and had a lovely day.......(and without fail every shop assistant we spoke to was pleasant, helpful and a credit to the Retail industry) but Sis had not brought a cossie with her..so just before close of play and returning to the hotel, we decided to buy a cheap swimming costume from a charity shop for her to wear in order for us to plough up and down the pool looking for all the world like professional swimmers...is that laughing I can hear at the back?.....in fact we can swim and that is all we can do..not gracefully, not quickly, not anything beautiful to look at...but we won't drown......so to get back to the point of this ramble she chose a size 12 bikini  (I know....those were the days eh?) but once we were getting togged up in the room and had already had a glass of wine she changed her mind about wearing it.....you know what's coming next don't you?....I normally wear a size 16 'cover everything' costume ......somehow, with the wine, and it being her birthday, (did I mention her birthday?), and me wanting to be liberated from worrying about my body...I wore the bikini and she had my costume......IT WAS A SIZE 12 bikini....I am a size 16 person...with white wobbly bits and peasant legs....but another slug of wine and I braved bearing it all (practically)..and although I'm sure I was not a pretty sight, I was glad to just walk up to the pool thinking 'this is me...who is even looking at me and who cares'..although after a couple of lengths I had to stop from laughing and not being able to breathe properly due to the size 12 top restricting what should come naturally.
She's gone home now and I miss her...wish we lived closer...


Today I sat at a make-up counter and had a young girl 'do up' my lips for me..........I am old and they are thin so she very kindly told me that my eyelashes were great.....' for my age'.
 I bought 'Faux' by MAC....or forks as it will always now be called.


My friend auntiegwen has had some good news about her daughter and her A level results.....and as my daughter will also be going to Uni soon  and we may need to console each other I think I need to start getting some practice in with regard to drinking heavily and not being unwell after two sniffs of the barmans apron.......

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Having to roll with it.......

Have just dropped 3 gorgeous young girls off at the airport...... asked the 'have you got passports, money, tickets, phones?' question......reminded them to have fun but to 'look out for each other and DONT TAKE DRUGS'....given hugs and kisses and waved good bye............have just had a call from daughter 'they say there is a problem with the aeroplane and they are going to be bussing us to Manchester...we won't arrive until the small hours tomorrow!!!!'....with her voice all quavery and little girlie and asking what they can do....just relax smile and roll it with darling...that's what life is like......and ring me as soon as you arrive.

Do you know how old you feel when you drop off 3 under 20's who have bikinis and flat stomachs, and who are talking about which club or bar to drink in and which is best to dance in?  103.......

Monday, August 16, 2010

Stuff..that's all..just stuff.......

D at 'scribing studios', that would be me, likes lists......so here are a couple while I have a breather between cleaning the bathroom (I know..I have no life, or cleaner) and emptying the dishwasher....

what I listened to driving up north.......
Kate Bush
Porcupine Tree
Roy Orbison
Leonard Cohen
Classic FM
R4

currently watching..........
The Brotherhood


cooking a lot of at the moment........
lemon and rocket risotto

wishing for.........
selfish things I know, but, a good haircut/colour.....to weigh a little bit less......contentment.

reading........
just finished 'reluctant fundamentalist' and now have to decide what to start next....have 8 books on the bedside table

last bought......
cream throw for spare bed......yes, cream....and there are two cats in the house and the room is sunny...I must need treatment...

about to.....
carry on with the housework.....go to have my eyes tested....sew some cushions.....get to grips with putting my thousands of photos via the scanner onto my computer.

sending.....

good wishes to anybody still bothering to read this x

Sunday, August 15, 2010

This weather.....is just.......weird.....

I have two lovely dresses/tunics that I have had hanging up while I am 'waiting' for Summer ..... today I wondered if perhaps I might get to wear them with thick tights and a cardigan in the Autumn. In fact I stupidly took white linen trousers and summery tops to Northumberland this week but was also on the ball enough to take jeans and jumpers and raincoat...guess which left the weekend bag and which did'nt? I think this is the weirdest weather....never knowing from one day to the next what you'll be wearing. ....... and I know that I could check forecasts etc., but somehow just looking out of the window each morning is more my thing........do you think this national 'greyness' that we all live under is changing us as people?

Saturday, August 14, 2010

What..no full english?.....

After staying in b+b's this week, it was a bit of a reality check to have to make my own tea and ginger jam this morning.........and yet, although our little trip up north was fantastic, as always, it is lovely to be home.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Bamburgh before bedtime...

Between showers and walks and drinks and laughs and 'coats on coats off' and chips and 'quick the sun is out...oh it's gone' ....earlier this week I was here .. northumberland is brilliant and we intend to return.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

A dream within a dream...

As we sat down last night I groaned inwardly as I remembered that this film had Leo DiCaprio in it...just as the last film we went to the pictures to see had, and that proved to be two hours of utter utter boredom....but as it turned out last nights film was really really good and although my poor sister was completely bewildered (does'nt take a lot actually to do that to her and this film was not a good choice for her but there you go...) I thoroughly enjoyed it. Most 'action' films are not my sort of thing really, but as a 'lucid dreamer' myself this really hit the spot and a good time was had by one and nearly all.....

Yesterday in the make up department of a large store I was looking for a new lipstick. Not having been blessed with large luscious lips I cannot usually wear more than a slick of tinted lip balm at most, but have wanted a lipstick for some time.  The young girl who eventually deigned to serve me looked as bored as it is possible to be, and after I enquired about the price of two that I had picked out, both tan/nude but with just a hint of colour she took one, looked at it and said 'oh yeah...forks...that is a good one..'.

I did'nt buy it but may go back to get it at another store, who knows how devil-may-care I might feel
later in the week...

The shade in question? Faux.

Monday, August 9, 2010

A day out....

My elder sister, the one who had a 60th birthday this year, is spending a couple of days with us here at 'needs dusting towers'. Today we were in the City Centre. This is quite a big outing for my sister and needs to have care taken over when manouvering things like trains and escalators. She caused a big backlog queue at the station as she tried and failed repeatedly to get onto the escalator, so we allowed all and sundry who were tutting behind us to go ahead and we took the stairs. She tripped over a pavement bump (although she only stumbled and I caught her arm) and was very flustered and said that she 'saw my life flash before me'. She also found the sight of so many ladies clothed from head to toe in burqas/hijabs quite startling and curious. Considered returning the italian biscuit at the coffee shop because it was 'so hard! it's going to break my teeth!' but was persuaded not to. Stood and gasped and 'oh-ed' and 'ah-ed' when a poor lady had her handbag stolen from the shoe shop we were in. Thought that the elderly gentleman who briefly spoke to us personably on the train home was 'chatting me up...why do all the nutters come to me...'. Bought herself  a pair of trousers, a pair of shoes, two jumpers and a newspaper. Has had to go and have a lie down now as it has all been too much for her. We are off to the 'pictures' tonight. All in all it has'nt been too bad a day but she certainly shares something with my mother that drives me mad..........they never stop talking......never....no natural breaks ....and with comments made on everything or random things just remarked upon...'ooh look that jumper is green'...'where is that plane going?' '£3.40 for a birthday card?!'. and jumping like she had been physically accosted or shot if she heard a barely audible car backfire or slight noise. Will be returning her  home tomorrow where she can relax......and tomorrow evening so can I.


Forgot in my last post about blogging to mention the 'vintage' sites I love to look at......there is such comort to be had in looking at old eiderdowns and knick-knacks and kitchenware....but as I keep saying out loud 'we've got that in the garage/shed/cupboard' or 'fifteen pounds for that!' or 'I remember mom using those' or 'well there are 3 of those around the corner in the charity shop'  I am mindful of the saying 'The only person interested in what your Grandma had is your Grandpa...'

Compartmental....

Ker-rikey, there is some great stuff out there in blogland. I am truly impressed with the standard of a lot of the blogs that I have just spent some time reading. Yet again, I find that I am drawn to the funny, my age-ish, here we all are in it together, sort of stuff, with a cursory nod now and again to the serious/arty/stimulating/emotional/young and trendy/domestic/highbrow (oh yes I have my moments y'know).
I am slightly puzzled by the blogs that seem to post lots and lots of pictures from very expensive magazines, and as I don't have to then buy that magazine as I have 'virtually' flicked through it, I thank them, but wonder why the authors don't annotate the pictures in some way. I seem to be avoiding the fashion blogs....mmmmm...no change there then....and as much as I would like to spend lots of money on good quality clothing and accessories, I think I am hard wired into wearing normal stuff and charity shop stuff and given to me by my sister stuff and just appreciating the fact that fashion has just passed me by. The cookery blogs are gorgeous, with lots of pictures of cakes and dishes that look tempting, but let's face it...I just don't do cooking anymore..in fact I don't do housework anymore, apart from what I consider to be the holy trinity of the house not looking too bad, namely, the beds must be made, the kitchen tidy, and bleach in the clean loos. Dusting and hoovering gets done when it really starts to get me down, or there is a visitor coming, whichever occurs first, and other than a sort of straighten around in the sitting room I consider that to be enough. The craft/designer blogs are fabulous to visit, and now and again I think about throwing away 30 odd years of accumulated stuff that we live with, and going all sleek, chic and minimalist, but really? aint gonna happen unless I win the lottery is it? Then there are the serious writer blogs.....now you really have to be in the mood for these I find. Some are wonderful displays of 'I am pouring out my most heartfelt dreams/memories here for the world to read' and you feel like a big gin and tonic and a lie down afterwards, others are very 'I am so talented and clever thank god for blogs because I needed to be published'...nuff sed. Now and again there are a few that make me realise how wonderful really really good writing can be. Photography blogs are impressive, with me aching to buy a camera and really learning how to use it, and music blogs make me feel old....I like what I like and am not really into trying new stuff as I have'nt finished with the old stuff yet and never will be. Visiting blogs is part of my day now and I need to update my list of those I regularly visit as I read so many, and will continue to find others I guess.  Don't know how to finish this little out loud pondering so will just.....stop.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

and so it begins....

Two whole weeks......free time......stay in bed if you want to/don't get dressed until lunchtime/step out into the world outside work/watch films until the small hours free time......and yet...and yet...already there is a 'well that guy is coming Monday to fix that light' and 'need to be in Leamington for those days' and 'that can only be done then' sort of diary type thing going on........which is OK....I guess....I mean, I like being organised and knowing which way is up etc., and so having dates fixed is good...but....but.....the two weeks already feels squeezed, shortened, and it has'nt even started yet. Moaning minnie? yes that would be me...so NO MORE! I am in my jamas looking forward to enjoying every last drop of the next 14 days.....freedom I can taste you and nothing could be sweeter!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

crowning glory.....I think not......

Dyed my hair again.....as mentioned previously, I just could'nt countenance taking out a second mortgage to pay the highly regarded hairdresser in the City....so a box of magic from boots did the trick.....one day I'm a funny dishwater blonde colour (with 2" black roots.....class, pure class...) and now ..voila...a light ash brown.........quite like it at the moment I must say.....but give me time.....

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Intrepid traveller.....

Over the next two weeks I hope to spend a few days visiting new places....just for a few days here and there...stepping out of this life and trying a new one on for size...new sights and atmospheres and just mooching around....bring it on.....

Monday, August 2, 2010

not cut out to have 'staff''....

My husband has 'employed' one of his friends from the bookies he frequents rather too regularly on a Saturday to come and tidy up our garden now and again......this is both a good thing and a bad thing.......allow me to elucidate (ahem).....

bad thing.........said friend is a retired gentleman who has a bad limp - surely it is against some sort of health and safety/insurance issue to allow this lovely old gentleman near loppers and secateurs and prickly bushes?
bad thing.......said husband is a lazy fucker who could do the garden himself
(yes I know I could do the garden MYSELF but I usually have other commitments involving family on my day off)
bad thing........said husband has given said friend carte blanche (sp?) to do what he likes in the garden
bad thing.......said friend has just arrived and has made me feel all  ' Margot' from the good life.....should I just say hello?, offer a drink?, muck in and help before going out? ignore him ? I am not used to having people work for me...its usually the other way around and as I'm sitting here in my jamas blogging I feel guilty
bad thing......I don't like seeing a small limping gentleman pottering about doing it....my husband assures me that his friend loves gardening and is happy to arrive and tidy up now and again...and my husband does pay him.....
good thing......I like the garden looking tidy

Me? council house kid or what?

S'all good......

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